Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Happy Birthday, Bud!

Today my Tyler would be 19 years old. 19. I find myself at a loss for words. There is such a huge difference between the almost 14 year old boy I remember so keenly and clearly and a 19 year old young man that I can only imagine…..

My heart wants to linger on all I imagine I have missed – then I remember these thoughts I wrote about four years ago. I have posted them on my blog before (about two years ago) but I share them again today as I reminder to myself. Yes, there is much I can only imagine but there is also MUCH that I have been blessed with -

And much I know for sure: there is no greater joy than being a mommy…and Tyler’s mommy at that! Tyler was loved. and Tyler loved his mama! This, too, I know – one day I will see Tyler again…and what a grand reunion that will be~~

The Luckiest Woman in the World

So often I am tempted to concentrate on all that I will miss-
You getting a driver’s license & your first car
Your first girlfriend & that first kiss
Where would you go to college?
Who would you marry?
When you took a job, what title would you carry?


But then, I stop and remind myself
I am the luckiest woman in the world!

I was the first one to caress your downy red head
with my cheek,The very first to cradle you and sing you to sleep. It was me you called for when you skinned a knee, when your dreams were scary or your feelings hurt –


I nursed ear infections and chicken pox and figured out how a Gameboy works! I listened to your Barney songs, your choir songs and
those special country music songs!

I watched you learn to ride a bike, taught you how to bake a cake and cheered too loudly with each new challenge you would take. We memorized Spelling words and memory verses and History dates to silly choruses.


When I really stop to think about it,
I am the luckiest woman in the world, because, you know -For fourteen years I was your mother and
Forever, and for always, I will be Tyler’s mom!!!


12 comments:

  1. Thinking of you today. Happy birthday Tyler!

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  2. Sweet post! Praying for you today.

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  3. Oh Jennifer my heart is so full for you today. Praying and thinking about you....(LOVED the poem) Big hugs, Debbie

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  5. A very sweet post! Praying for comfort for you as you think of your precious son. The poem was beautiful and yes, you will always be Tyler's mom.

    The pictures of your vacation are beautiful!

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  6. That is a beautiful heart poem. You have a gift given by God as you keep positive thoughts about the passing of your son. Thanks for sharing.

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  7. Happy Tyler Day. :) So glad you will see him again someday!

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  8. Jennifer...this touched me so deeply. Just wanted to let you know that I'm thinking of and praying for you as you remember Tyler.

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  9. Sad and happy, just like so many things in life. Can't imagine what your thoughts are going through. Said a prayer for you today.

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  10. A birthday in Heaven. Can you imagine? Happy Birthday to Tyler and hugs for you :)

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  11. What a precious post hon,
    So glad you have eternal perspective, it really is everything....isn't it!
    He sounded like such a wonderful young man. Happy birthday Tyler,
    can't wait to meet you when I get to heaven, cause I feel like I already know you from all the wonderful things your Mama has told us!!

    Blessings Sweetie,
    Praying for you,
    Nellie

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  12. Oh yea, and that was an awesome poem, loved it!!
    Nellie

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