Monday, April 11, 2011

A Daybook Entry on a Beautiful Day!

I am "late" posting this morning...not that there is a required time but I do try to get my computer time done earlier rather than later; however, it has been a totally splendid morning here and I have so been enjoying it - walking the dog, talking with the Lord, enjoying breakfast outside and even getting some cleaning done. Why do chores seem so much easier when the weather is so lovely??

Still wanted to get a daybook entry done - just to get my thoughts recorded:)

Outside my window...it is beautiful but I have especially noticed all the cardinals! Cardinals are very, very special to me - one was a specific gift from God once on one of my lowest days - and my heart always smiles and I immediately think of Tyler, of Heaven and of my savior whenever I see one. I usually see them one at a time but today I saw, at least, three! I will be walking on air for days!!

I am thinking...of very specific answers to prayers in the past. I know God answer prayers. I know that. Right now, I am in a period of waiting on some heavy-burdened prayers and I can start to forget that God is still working - even in the waiting. Counting blessings...and answered prayers...helps me to remember.

I am wearing...a white shirt - HA! (that is an old joke...sorry if you missed it.)

I am remembering....a special visit from our assistant pastor to Tyler when he was in Children's Hospital. So funny how these memories come at me...seemingly from nowhere. Last night at church, as I had my head bowed, Pastor T walked down the aisle. I saw his cowboy boots:) and - just like that - that visit came back to me as clear as if it had been yesterday. Tyler LOVED Pastor T! He was his hero. And as much as Tyler HATED that time in the hospital, he LOVED that visit from Pastor T!! I'll admit - those "out of nowhere" memories can really get me. And sometimes they hurt so bad - but I wouldn't trade them for anything and pray that I never lose them.

I am going...to a meeting at Children's tonight. It has been some months since I went to one of these meetings and some months since being back at the hospital. Not quite sure how I feel about it.

I am reading...Made to Crave and The End of the Spear. Both really good books but why do I have so much trouble finishing books????

I am hoping...cooler, yucky days are gone for good!!

On my mind...Tyler. Always. There is also an upcoming medical test I have to do next week that I do not want to do. At all. But I do need the results - so I can stop stressin' over it. Ugh.

From the kitchen...this really should be OUT of the kitchen. I am "purging" the kitchen of sugar. Having been on this diet, it is not too huge of a leap but a leap nonetheless. My biggest challenge is getting past "wasting" food by simply throwing things out. It would be very easy to convince myself that I'll go sugar-free as soon as I eat all this sugar in my pantry!! Probably not a great idea.

Around the house....are too many doggie toys!! What is up with that??!

Plans for the week....Someone special has a birthday tomorrow!! So wish we could be together and really celebrate - but we will make the best of it:)

One of my favorite things.....Coconut Milk Creamer. So yummy. I found this yummy treat for my coffee from Kris - THANK YOU!

4 comments:

  1. Jennifer,
    Just wanted you to know that I'm thinking of you and praying for you as you face various memories of Tyler and his time in the hospital...as well as your upcoming test. Just continue to lean on God for strength...and He will give you the peace that you so desperately need.

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  2. Hi Jen,
    The weather can be a great pick me up or a downer. I'm glad you are enjoying the pretty weather.
    I'm still cleaning and honestly it's hard when the weather is nice and I want to be outside.
    I'm glad you have happy memories to reflect back on. It helps to get you through, I'm sure.
    God is always good and he does hear our prayers. His timing is not always our timing, though.
    I hope you get some answers soon!
    Enjoy your day!

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  3. I am so glad you are enjoying some pretty weather. It is gorgeous here today too which is the first one of those days since Mel got here. I love that the Lord has blessed you with soo many wonderful memories of your Tyler. He is so good to us and I pray they always bring that smile to your heart. I will pray that you get the answers you are looking for in your upcoming test. Sure hope everything is alright?? Much love to you!!

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  4. Jennifer - We too have a cardinal who is making appearances every day. They are so beautiful. We also have woodpeckers, male and female, and when the sun shine on their feathers they are so pretty. When I think on how God looks out for those little creatures then I can know He also is there for you and me.
    Lately when a loved dies I think of what he/she might to spared from living in this ole sinful world. They are safe with their Heavenly Father, free from any harm. But I know we miss them so much. He sends the trials but He also furnishes the peace. God bless you and yours.

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